I have been meaning to blog about this for quite a while, but initially it's not something I wanted to talk about and then as usual I never found the time.
Back in May last year I started to suffer with chronic pains in my chest, but I was so busy with both studio's I never found the time to get to the doctors. Then came the broken knee...and strangely my stress/panic levels went through the roof and so did the pain in my chest. I put it down to not being able to do the things I needed and having to rely on other people to drive me around and as a result not being able to fit 10 million things into one day.
Once my knee could bend the pain in my chest got worse again, so at last I went to the doctors thinking I must have a chest infection. She checked everything out and after a chat said to me 'you are not superwoman, so stop trying to be her'. At this point I cried (this is not like me, I very rarely cry). The conclusion of the visit was I was suffering with anxiety.
I thought to myself this can't be true, I've been through some horrific times in life (Mum dying and me unable to look after her due to a house extension, newborn and one year old and a Dad fighting cancer all at the same time) and I didn't get ill. But I guess anxiety affects people for different reasons, I have discovered my reason is when I can't control something (like being able to drive myself when my knee was broken).
Thankfully I know feel fully in control (in control of my control probably sounds like I'm an utter control freak!) and happy to chat away about it with anyone, which I have discovered really helps as there are so many suffers out there. What I'm trying to say is it's good to talk, which again is not something I would usually do, I am super private when it comes to certain things. I hope this helps just one person out there feel like they can speak to someone if they are struggling with any mental health issues, as its not something to be ashamed of, its as normal as getting for example a chest infection.
So, on to what I have been up to the past few weeks... I have been creating Emily's Soap Shop, give the Facebook page a like for our opening offers. I must admit it has become a new obsession, and I think my friends and family (and team) are already sick to death of hearing about soap! I wanted to soap to be Vegan (Lorna- our party host is vegan and I'm amazed at how difficult it appears to be to be vegan- everything uses animals), obviously cruelty free, SLS free (the stuff that makes you itch in soap and all packaging to be 100% recyclable.
To try and combine all of these factors has been... challenging! BUT the soaps will also be soooo fabulously extravagant and flamboyant. We hope to launch on 1st March (we will be waiting on the chemist approving them).
Last of all we have some great events this half term, including one which I am going to put on sale tomorrow, it will be a sing along to The Greatest Showman, and we have the most amazing singer in who will be leading the vocals entertaining you!